Keeping It REAL!

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Tiff turns 50

I just turned 50!  WOW!  I still can’t believe it. 

As I look back on the month long celebration I discovered that I am living my best life single.  I also realized that I am looking pretty darn good at 50 and I have an amazing group of friends and family that love me so much.

But as I look at all my fun social media posts, I realized that, Holy Shit, I just turned 50.   I also realized that I am still single. WOW, WOW, WOW.

Now it is possible that I smiled about this and then broke down in to a huge cry session. 

Keeping It REAL… this is hard to admit but I am a little afraid of ALL of IT!  If I can be honest with you and tell you that “I don’t have it all figured out”.  My life isn’t always as awesome as I see on my own social media.   I am HERE and I am not flawless.  None of us are as perfect as we are on social media.

This is who I am, some days I feel like a total fraud!  The other days I am Wonder Woman.  Sometimes we get so caught up in the good, the pretty and the perfect of social media we forget what the “REAL” is anymore.  My stories and posts are real and my mission statement is “Let me take you on adventure”.  I truly live my mission statement.  Life is also messy and so am I! 

I am 50, single and if my gyno brings up menopause one more time, she is getting punched.  It is so hard to stay in shape these days, where did cellulite come from and how much Botox is needed to age gracefully?  This is what keeps me up at night.  I also struggle with owning my own business, always doing business development to ensure I have income while perusing my passion of empowering everyone to live their best life.  Sometimes I am tired of being alone and doing this all by myself.  I would rather be alone than lower my standards, but dangit “the struggle is real”.

I want to thank each and every one of you for allowing me to share my story, to be vulnerable.  I so struggle with this.  I also deeply love you for not judging me and supporting me in my goals and dreams. 

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We all have a story!

We write our own Scripts

KISS THINGS GOODBYE

- Sometimes God will close the door so the he can open another - Joel Osteen

I heard an amazing sermon recently by Joel Osteen with the title KISS THINGS GOODBYE. This resonated so much with me as I reflect on things I have had to Kiss Goodbye.

Joel shared that:

* There are people and opportunities that were not ordained for your past and that were not ordained for your future.

* They were right for a season, but that season can come to an end.

* We must let go of our past so that we can embrace our amazing future that God has planned for us.

* The key here is how we handle the closed doors and the disappointments.  Also how we handle the people that treated us wrong and left us.

This begs the questions…Have you ever, instead of kissing these people goodbye, you smacked them goodbye? Are you at Peace with your past or Bitter?

I decided that it’s time to KISS some things GOODBYE!

Don’t bring bitterness into your NEW YEAR! You can not embrace the amazing things God has in store by holding on to the old.

It takes a lot of energy to relive the past, wonder why it didn’t work out, why they left. If they were supposed to be here, they would still be here. When you KISS the past goodbye, it releases you into your future. You have to be at peace with what’s behind you.

KISS IT GOODBYE

If God doesn’t want it to happen, no amount of energy is going to make it happen. He knows how to open doors that no man can shut and shut doors no man can open. - Joel Osteen

If you don’t KISS the wrong people GOODBYE, you’ll never meet the right people.  If someone is not adding value to your life and pushing you to do better, KISS THEM GOODBYE!

The friends you had 5 years ago may not be the friends you need today.  Everyone can not go where you are going.  Doesn’t mean they aren’t good people, you just out grew them.  You are going at a faster pace and if you stay with them, they will hold you back.

If someone is supposed to be in your life, you CAN NOT make him or her leave.  If someone leaves easily, then that person is not supposed to be there.  Stop trying to talk people into staying.  You are a GIFT, a PRIZE.  Be respectful, but KISS THEM GOODBYE!  Sometimes you have to Kiss people goodbye to become who you were created to be.

KISSES, Tiffany

Wheel of Life

How Balanced are YOU?

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The first thing I always do with a new client is the Wheel of Life exercise.  No matter how accomplished or happy we are, we all have areas of our life that could use some improvement.  The Wheel of Life is a way to take a good look at each facet of your life, and rate its relative quality level, so you can uncover which areas need more attention than others.  Consider that each are like a spoke of a wheel:  when one of the spokes is shorter than the others, it can throw the whole thing off balance.

Step 1:  Choose your categories

The Wheel of Life categories are chosen depending what might play a dominant role in your life.  They include:

  • Health:  Your physical health and well-being (can also include emotional health)

  • Relationships/Friends and Family:  Includes your primary intimate relationship, family and friends

  • Social:  Includes religious/spiritual communities and other group activities

  • Financial/ Money:  Your ability to manage your money effectively, save, budget, and invest

  • Professional/ Business/ Career:  This is your work category, which can break out into a whole another category

  • Personal Growth:  personal development

  • Spirituality:  This can be its own category or simply the driving force behind all of your areas of Focus

  • Fun & Leisure:  anything you do for fun

  • Home Environment:  your personal space

  • Significant other:  If you have one (how are you).  If you want one (how is that going and how important is it)

*Tip:  You must determine the areas that are most important to you. However, we all have a tendency to focus on certain areas at the expense of other areas.

*Tip:  All key areas are important as they hit on basic human needs.  When we don’t address these basic needs, our lives fall out of balance (can cause neurotic behavior)

*Tip:  The entire circle represents your overall life and each piece represents a different aspect.

 Step 2:  Assess and Rank your Current Level of Fulfillment on a scale of 1 – 10

  1. Think briefly what a satisfying life might look like for you in each area

  2.  Next, draw a line across each segment that represents your satisfaction score for each area.

  3.  Imagine the center of the wheel is 0 and the outer edge is 10

  4.  Choose a value between 1 (very dissatisfied) and 10 (fully satisfied)

  5.  Now draw a line and write the score alongside

*Tip: Use the FIRST number (score) that pops into your head, not the number your think it should be!

Step 3:  Determine 2 or 3 actions you can take to make improvements in the Areas that you’re weakest in

The Wheel of Life can force you to examine your blind spots and own up to where you need to make major improvements for LIFE BALANCE.

Used on a weekly, monthly, or quarterly basis, it can help you build positive momentum and make course corrections as needed.

Please use the attached Wheel of Life and take your own assessment.

When to take the Ring Off?

It is completely up to YOU!

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What does the ring mean?

Let’s start with “What does the ring mean?” Once again, I went to “Google”…

The Story and Meaning Behind A Wedding Ring: “For all couples, the exchange of wedding rings on your wedding day is the end one journey and the beginning of another. The ring signifies the love and commitment the couple have for each other.”

The meaning of a wedding ring: “The circle shape of a wedding ring also holds special meaning. A circle is endless and has no beginning or end. This means that a circle goes on forever, just like the love a married couple have for each other. The circle shape of a wedding ring signifies that your love for one another is endless and will last forever.”

As I am writing this, I find my eyes watering just a little. It has been 10 years since my divorce and reading what the wedding ring means can still hurt my heart. For those of you who have been divorced, I am not sure what your feelings were and still are, but it continues to be a roller coaster for me at times. Do you remember how he asked, what your feelings were, how he felt? I sure do, like it was yesterday. As sappy as Ric was, this was not his finest moment. He could never keep a surprise. The day the ring was ready, he rushed to go get it and raced home. He emerged through the door like a super hero as I was working with the cable guy. Ric ran up to me with cards, the cards that have all the writing in them (you know the ones) he needed me to read every word that he underlined. With tears in his eyes, he opened the box and got on one knee and said, “It’s 1/2 carat bigger than Beth’s (his 2nd wife). Will you marry me?” As he put it on my finger he also added that I should probably put it on my right hand as his divorce was not final and she will most likely flip. Guys, I hope yours was a little more romantic.

When I first left Ric, I was so sad and lonely. Then depressed because I failed, then to anger, hurt, disappointment, sorrow and fear because of the abuse I had endured. To finally, complete abandonment. My mother was divorced twice and now so was I. I wanted to believe in forever, true love, prince charming, all of it. These emotions were all over the place for years. I also remember very clearly when I took my ring off. It was just a week into our separation, but I needed to sell it to pay my attorneys. I remember looking down at my hand for months feeling like something was missing. After speaking with many friends that were divorced, men and women, there were many different answers to the question…when is the right time to remove the ring?

Here are my findings:

  1. If you are the one initiating the divorce, you might have made up your mind and you are moving on. That is the time to remove the ring now that you are clearly ready to move on.

  2. If you are the spouse that did not initiate the divorce and you are not ready to let go, life is much more complicated. Keeping the ring is a sign that you are not ready to let go and move on yet.

  3. If the divorce is mutual, it is usually when one spouse takes the ring off first that the other spouse will take theirs off as soon as they find out.

  4. If you have children, it is complicated as well. How will they feel?

My conclusion is, there is no cut-and-dry answer. I truly feel that it is a very individual decision when to take your ring off. There is no right or wrong time. No one is in your story, no one knows what your day-to-day feelings are, and no one should judge when it is the right time for you to take the ring off. I actually still believe in marriage and the RING. I have just picked the wrong partners. Next time, I will listen to that “still soft voice” and there will be a forever.

Confidence: What is it and How do you get it back?

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I sometimes wonder, what happened to my confidence? So, I did what everyone does in these situations… I Googled it!

Confidence - the feeling or belief that one can rely on someone or something; firm trust.

Faith - complete trust or confidence in someone or something

WOW! They are the same. There have been times in my life, I will admit, that my Faith has not been strong. I have been broken. However, there has never been a time that I did not believe in God. In fact, there were many times when I wondered where he was.

My mom has always taught us to “fake it till you make it”. I remember in the late 80’s when the stock market crashed and she had to declare bankruptcy, she kept her mink coat and her MR2. She told us that she can’t go to clients in a beat up car looking like she had no money. She told me the same thing when I began personal training and going to very wealthy clients’ homes. I leased a nice car, invested in my training uniforms and showed up like the successful professional that I was becoming. My theory on faking it till you make is: I am faking it right now but very shortly, I will make it!

Faith and Confidence is not something you can not fake. You have to believe it in your soul. I want to share 5LLs (Life Lessons) to FIND IT and GET IT BACK!

#1 Don’t Stop Believing!

I don’t know about you, but music gets to me. I will revert to Journey’s iconic hit song, which reminds you not to give up when your’re livin’ in a lonely world. Roll the dice, just one more time.

I know there are times in our lives that we want to stop believing, but we can’t. It is imperative to surround yourself with people that believe in you; sometimes more than you believe in yourself. Make sure you choose carefully who is “inside your ring”. I hired an amazing therapist who ever so gently helped me find me. Ask for support! There are things we need to ask for help with. It is especially hard as single, strong ass women!

#2 Be Fearless 

Gym Class heroes - The Fighter

“Until the referee rings the bell, until both your eyes start to swell, until the whole crowd goes home, WHAT we gonna do ya’ll? Give em HELL. Say to me….There goes a fighter!!! if you fall get up off the floor. “

Failing isn't your enemy; it's fearing failure that truly cripples you. If you set big goals and have big dreams, you're going to feel overwhelmed, and you're inevitably going to feel like you can't do it. In those moments, you have to look inside yourself, and gather every ounce of courage you have and just keep going. Every single wildly successful person has been afraid, and they've kept working and taking risks anyway, because what they are trying to accomplish is more important and urgent than their fear of failure. Think about how much you want to achieve your goal, then put your fear to the side, and keep going, one day at a time.

My brother, Scott always says to me (to this day) “get up before you realize your are bleeding”.

#3 Stand-up For Yourself   

Christina Aguilera - Fighter

“After all you put me through, you would think I despised you, but in the end I want to thank you for making me that much stronger.”

When your goal, project, etc. is in its early stages, and someone says that your goal is stupid, or that you can not do it, it's tempting to believe them because they're joining the chorus of doubts inside your head. Logically you think, "How can I be right when this person and all these doubts in my head are telling me I can't do this? That this idea is stupid." And you have to tell those people, especially the voices in your head, that they're wrong. You have it in you, so tell them you believe in your goal, you believe in yourself, so you're going to accomplish it. There's a great line in 10 Things I Hate About You, when Joseph Gordon-Levitt is about to give up his pursuit of Larisa Oleynik, and Heath Ledger gives him a pep talk, ending it with,"Don't let anyone, ever make you feel like you don't deserve what you want."

#4 Ask God for help

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“Be still and know that the Lord is in control. Be still and watch as giants loose control. You silence all my fear”.

I am responsible for my life choices and I work every day to forgive myself for those choices. My choices have also helped me become me. There have been times when I wondered where God was, why wasn’t he answering my prayers? Why did he leave me? Have you ever felt this way? I want you to know, without a shadow of a doubt, I know he has never left me, even when I sometimes left him.

There is not one day that I don’t ask God for help. Man, oh man I need him! I can not do this on my own. I could not make it through the challenges in my life without him. I sometimes get on my knees, and with tears in my eyes just ask for a “hug”. I actually feel it too. This is one of the most important LL (Life lessons) for me.

#5 Gratitude

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“Where I long to be…the light at the night of the sea…SHE CALLS ME!”

No matter what is going on in my life, I am thankful, grateful and loved. I thank God everyday for the blessings he continues to give me. I live on the water and make sure everyday I show complete gratitude for this opportunity. My pastor shared that when you smile….God is in that smile and we are showing him gratitude.

I read an article about the 31 Benefits of Gratitude You Didn’t Know About: How Gratitude Can Change Your Life. I will share a few of my favorites as well as the entire article.

Gratitude makes…

  • us happier

  • people like us

  • us healthier

  • you live longer

  • us feel good

  • you look good - who doesn’t want this?!

Life is an Adventure and we are here to make the most of it. Be grateful for the things around you, have fun, play and enjoy life. I am so blessed to live on the water and paddle board with my boys and I absolutely make the most of it.

I repeat to myself “My Faith is Bigger than my Fear.”

10 years ago I got my first tattoo that symbolize Psalms 46:10 “Be Still and know that I am God,” and for 10 years I have been still. I recently got my 2nd tatoo that says “FAITH” on my wrist.

It is now time for me to step into absolute FAITH. Come join me…